I was organizing my locker afterschool last week, something I do many days afterschool (yet another aspect of my OCPD), and I found a list that I had written last year. It was all the books that I had read last year, or at least all of the books that I had remembered. The first seven titles were the Harry Potter books. The first four actually had "(read this twice)" written next to them.
At first, this filled me with pride because it meant that I had read eleven Harry Potter books last year, nothing record-breaking, but considering that I had read a great deal of other books as well it was a pretty decent accomplishment. Then I became a little upset because I had realized something- I had been underestimating the total number of times I had read a Harry Potter book. I had been saying that I'd read them somewhere in the late teens, early twenties range, but after seeing that I had read them eleven times last year alone, I realized that I had actually read them about thirty plus times. A much more impressive, albeit nerdy, number.
And as nerdy as getting upset about such a little thing is, I am slowly becoming okay with the fact that I am a major nerd. I have come to the conclusion that as much as I have, somewhat unsuccessfully, tried to repress it, nerdiness will forever be a part of who I am, and I'm proud of that. Well, I'm proud of that when I'm around other nerdy people, or alone. I'm still working on being okay with it when people are judging me for it. Someday...
Anyway, this realization had inspired a few blog post topics (different types of nerd/the difference between a nerd and a geek, more Harry Potter stuff, and probably one about my nerdiness in general), so look forward to those whenever I find another time to write.
Until that time comes, try to embrace who you are.
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